‘Tis the season…

I sit here with my peppermint mocha in a very quiet house aside from Christmas music on Pandora a room away.  I sit with the awareness of my complete unworth to the blessings that have been given to me.  It is in this time of quiet peace, (that is few and far between) that I put aside my list of ‘things to do when I get a free moment’, and I remember advice that has been given to me by numerous wise women in my life…I rest.  Jack is nestled in his bed for his afternoon nap and Jason is out with Sam and Ben at the stores, no doubt buying ‘mommy’ something else I don’t deserve. So much I can get caught up in the “what I need to be doing” when there is silence.  Planning the next meeting, getting some students together so I can ‘speak into their lives’, run a quick inventory to make sure we are doing all we can do, make a checklist for the New Year, etc… So instead in this rest I am aware of my sovereign God.  So wonderful to me.  In control of our time, minute, hours, days.  I look around and think if I cannot be content in THIS, what is to become of me.  So I am thankful.  SO thankful. For what Christ has entrusted me with today.  I want to treasure it and cultivate it, so that He can trust me with His plan and purpose.  My ‘season’ that I am in.  I want to relish it! A wife and a mommy of little men.  I look around my home…Christmas is my ultimate favorite time of year.  My husband will second that as he had to pull out all of my Christmas decor…which had grown in lieu of the Christmas sale of 2009.  In the front room is a beautiful Christmas tree decked out with blue and gold ribbons, gold poinsettias and blue, red and antiqued glass balls.  It ties together all that is in these two front rooms with all the trimmings on everything possible…kinda formal like…and in my opinion, humbly stunning.  But I sit in the heart of our home.  The site where games of candy land and treasure hunts take place.  Here stands a Christmas tree with handmade ornaments, snowflakes and candy canes.  This spruce’s needles decorate the floor underneath it due to the ornaments being shifted daily by little hands.  “My snowman ornament looks like it’s eating this candy cane mommy!!” The hearth is jovial with red bell garland and all looks ‘festive comfortable’.  The recipe for rolled sugar cookie dough is on the next tab on my MacBook as I am preparing for the boys to fill the house with noise again.  Yes, this is my favorite time of year, but I’m realizing that THIS is my favorite season of life!  As I know it that is!  Days of lunching with friends and quiet dinner parties will be in my future, but for now I love the times of floured faced 2 and 5 year olds.  I love the pitter patter and sometimes stomping of little feet through the house.  I love the disputes over toys and turns on a favorite chair.  Because THIS is what He has blessed me with.  And I want to treasure it and cultivate it.  He has trusted these beautiful little men to me….and ‘Tis the season for these blessings to have all I have to give!