as all know, the holidays bring a lot with them. “cold” weather, carols, family… i have always looked forward to this time of year. trimming the tree and decking the halls have always brought me much joy. it saddens me that this year i haven’t really “gotten in to it”. maybe the fact that we aren’t in our house…putting up tania’s things in the way she had them is nostalgically nice, and has a beautiful southern living look to it, but it is still impersonal for me.
maybe the “christmas excitement” was all used up with getting 4 homes ready for the christmas home tour that kinetic put on this year for STL. it was fun, but tiring, and still not the excitement of pulling out my own cherished christmas decor and strategically placing it to where i would get a “chestnuts roasting on an open fire feeling” as i walked through my house.
i haven’t started shopping yet either. thinking about getting out the old MacBook tonight and joining millions on my couch who just click and wait for “santa” dressed in brown to bring it to my door verses try to go out with 3 children and face the masses who like the thrill of waiting in traffic, standing in lines and dealing with a cashier who is tired of working 12 hour shifts.
i say all this not to complain, but to share, after all, that is the purpose of blogging! christmas will be joyful, different, but joyful this year. sam and ben will love it. and i will love being a part of that.
Oak and Pines 
Hey Jessica! Thanks for posting this- it’s honest and humble. I just read a quote on some blog somewhere (like how specific I am? :)that said something to the effect of “Christ’s birth wasn’t quite what Mary had hoped it would be either” and that’s kind of stuck with me for the past week or so I thought I’d share it with you! You all are still in our thoughts and prayers often. Keep up the blogs- I enjoy reading them!
thanks samantha! there is pressure knowing that you read my blogs! i love that quote and it will help my perspective a lot this season. i appreciate it and hope that you and yours have a lovely holiday!
I too appreciate your humility and honesty, as I too, haven’t quite felt that warm and fuzzy feeling of excitement that I normally get this time of year. It did get a little better once I did a little shopping and started wrapping a few gifts that I knew the people I was wrapping them for were going to love!! p.s. I too am also waiting on the man in brown!! 🙂
Hey Jessica,
I know what you’re talking about. I have had that feeling along time. Especially since I lossed my mom. I dreaded the holidays up till this year. I enjoyed having Erin and Erica home again. That helped usher in the season. I can’t imagine what you and Jason are going through right now. I do have a lot of respect for you moving into your in-laws house. I’m not sure I could have done that. We are praying for all of the Burgbacher family.
Love you guys,
Tammy